the sun sets
flames come out to play in the night
music sets the tone
for remembered conversation
on a bench near the dolphins
we talk
things old
things new
you look at me
I can feel it
feel you
we need a change of scenery
the torches light our path
only most of the way
the sound of flip-flops accompanies us
our conversation
a quiet spot is found
dark and sacred
what is a course to golfers
is a haven to us
only in darkness
laying back to see the stars
distant and bright
you look at me again
I look back only briefly
I can't fall to hard
but it's too late for that
time has
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ceaseless
keep it coming
it's all i need
fill my head
stop my thoughts
drop it all
just for you
over and over
it comes back again
the neverending story
who gave you the authority?
my heart still bleeds
whether you notice
or just walk away
it's all the same
light comes with the day
same old cycle
nothing new
endless days
echoed laughter
swirling thoughts
all in confusion
are you real?
or is it just me?
another hour
all on my back
i hear the music
i can't feel the mood
that's the way it is
seemingly real
but so far off
so far off.
will i ever be the one?
unlikely
what does it take?
i wish i knew
you're so far away
but you feel so close
my heart is yours
if you care to notice
i think i care too much
or maybe you care too little
it's all relative
or so you say
i take words to heart
especially yours
is it a waste?
my thoughts are getting cold
stand-still
reflect on the past
behold the present
the ever passing moment
my legs feel weak
it must be you
sometimes you consume my mind
it's overpowering
you hold the key
to my inner most being
I lose myself in you
I'm in too deep
there's no escape
when will it break?
when will I wake up?
too many questions
the answers elude me
it's neverending
time in itself may kill me
my mind is full
thoughts that spiral
I cannot process things fast enough
too many interuptions
don't fuck with my emotions
my head is already messed
thanks and no thanks to you
I stand on a fault line
just waiting for the quake
low expectations
no motivation
bah
life goes on
Hi, it's me.
Are you there?
I'm not sure.
You could have me fooled.
We talked that night
and you were so real.
More real than anyone I've ever known.
But since then, you're just an entity of words.
I read them repeatedly,
trying to see you in them,
but I can't.
I try,
I really do
because I so badly want you to be there.
I know we're still young,
but I have this feeling sometimes,
like maybe something more could bloom...
Then I am again faced with reality.
The miles are hard to conquer,
but we could do it.
Did you catch that?
We.
That's all I have.
Get back to me.
How do I feel?I don't know anymore.
Everything around me has lost it's once beautiful meaning.
The sky is no longer an enigma.The pure snow is melting.
There go all the snow angels of days past.
It seems nothing can stay the same forever.
I realize this, but I am still constantly let down.
Is life too complex or am I too simple?
I am too young to know anything.Or so they tell me.
I feel this way today, but will I feel the same tomorrow?
I keep coming back to the snow angels.They must be a sign.
Maybe of things lost, of people disappointed, of the way it should be.
As you get up and walk away, the snow on your back chills you.
The
have you ever noticed how everyone looks and acts the same?
i think i'm missing the subliminal messages that scream conform.
it's hard to find anyone to identify with.
it shouldn't be that way.
real friends shouldn't be few and far between.
maybe i'm the exception.
maybe the world isn't made for people like me.
maybe is should just suck it up and go with the flow.
but i can't do that.
being me is the only thing i know how to do right.
so why is it becoming harder by the day?
i bet it's this town.
i never really did fit in here.
different ideals and ambitions,
yeah, they landed me on the periphery.
this place holds me down.
i watch your car as you drive away
your words echo in my head
i'm sorry to disappoint you
it seems i can't help it
i'm sorry i'm not good enough
it's hard sometimes
to just be for everyone else
it's hard to act without a script
you see, i just want to have fun
though our definitions may be different
that's all it is
i want you to understand
but i can't force that
but dammit, don't use that tone of voice
don't look at me like that
it makes me feel worthless